Darkened Memory

I have awaken from my slumber,
Wither will I remember,
A smile that took forever,
It gives me such scruple to wipe it hither;
For it is not a plunder,
As you may have thought altogether.

Yet we see it wither,
Wilt and die as time grew older,
Perish in the dark, deeper than ever;
Sun shines no more, nothing makes us warmer,
Wind blows drearier making us shiver.

Taking the plunge down under,
Feeling the plight of the bearer,
Never shall I trespass the border,
That keeps our friendship together;
Seeking refuge in the winter,
Assuming it is not untimely to the keeper.

Loathe am I to be the bringer,
Of news that bore such fear;
Tearing apart and asunder,
The peace we have had earlier,
Leaving ashes and dust and cinder,
In place of memories we kept so dear.



MEANING:

1st paragraph:
One awakes from sleep and remembers as she had always have, that the smile took forever to appear and she was not inclined to erase it. In her opinion, it does not do blunder as others may have thought.

2nd paragraph:
As time grows, people see the smile disappear and the days that went by was colder. A reference to the smile was made in the line; 'Sun shines no more'. The line; 'making us shiver' refers to the cold inside that appears when the smile has gone.

3rd paragraph:
She takes a brave attempt and felt the hardness of life her friend had bore. She vows not to step on the line of friendship they had and instead seek protection in the friendship if the friend does not feel burdened.

4th paragraph:
She hates to be the bearer of bad news. A tragic incident had occurred and tore the lives around her to pieces. The memories of the friendship and smiles they treasured now left to dust and ashes and the soot from the burned keepsakes.